Tired...

Yesterday was my first time crying because i felt that i'm carrying too many things and thoughts on my shoulders...
and my head was just like it would explode...
i cried about a half an hour long...
i was confuse, mad, everything was on me yesterday...

i feel that i'm not suited to the major i'm taking now...
because there's many thing that i ca't understand..
i feel it is hard...
almost everything is hard...
i am afraid that it's only me feeling this way...

alhamdulillah...
after i pray, i remember about my family and how my parents spent their money for my tuition for the sake of my success in college and future..
i began to forget all the things that makes me cry..
and renewing my thoughts..

i think it was good for me that i cried yesterday, because i let it all out of me...
and today..i'm my usual me..

like what a friend said to me...

pilihan kita itu belum tentu yang terbaik buat kita, tapi yang pasti Allah tau apa yang terbaik untuk kita...
dan menempatkan kita di tempat dan keadaan seperti ini karena Allah tau kita itu pasti mampu melewatinya..

and i miss my best friend so much she's ACIE....
she's someone who gives me advice, great advices ofcourse....
she's the best people i always have...
wish she gets all the best for her life...
and accomplish all her dreams...
amin..